I had moved on. Forgotten about it. But now that I’m trying to have this new relationship, it’s like the memory just keeps coming back. I dream about it. I don’t know how to tell him why every time he touches me, I want to scream. I’m scared, ashamed to talk about it. I just want to bury the whole thing forever. But it’s imprinted in my every single thought. I’m afraid I won’t ever be able to just have a normal life. To just be a normal girl. This will always define me.
For more information on trauma in relation to sexual assault, click here.
If you require emotional support or access to resources, we are available 24/7 through our crisis line, THE PHONE.